Okay, now I’ve been single for a couple of years now, but i have had my share of good and bad relationships. And back then, i used to make youtube videos about “Cheating Boyfriends”, “How To Move On”, etc. So..of course, now i have quit youtube, but those videos are still there.
And today in the wee hours of the morning, i received an email from a viewer, who happened to watch my video. And here’s what she wrote:
And you know what’s the weird part? I’ve been through what she is going through right now, and it sucks!! Depression..that’s the worst thing ever! I have been through major depression and you know what? I came out alive..and happy!
But if someone were to ask me what depression was like..i would say…it’s like drowning except you see everyone around you breathing. And i am not even kidding when i say, how many suicides depression has caused!! But i will say one thing…people don’t die from suicide..they die from sadness.
So..here’s my advice..
Get over him. He’s not even worth it, He’s not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, I know that. And I know you can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there.
But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with???
Do you honestly think he is thinking about you??? NO!!
Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you are gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends! PREPARE YOURSELF..because straight up, it’s gonna hurt..
He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he know you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you, and that’s exactly why he will continue to do it! DON’T LET HIM GET TO YOU BECAUSE..THAT, WELL, THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT HE WANTS.
Don’t give him what he wants! He doesn’t even deserve it.
So what if he doesn’t talk to you?? Do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways?
Thing is…I know you still do..But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try to make you jealous, do you really really REALLY wanna hear that??? NO!!! SCREW HIM and HIS GIRLFRIEND!
He will be sorry, trust me, when he finally sees you with some other guy who is not him. With that huge grin on your face, and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realise how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you..the girl of his dreams. He will realise the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry!
And don’t you sit there thinking he won’t be sorry..i know you are. But i guarantee you now, HE WILL BE SORRY!! So..don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that ONE phone call you know you’re never gonna get. Or that whatsapp message you know he will never send you..
He does all that because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he does not see you online, and he does it intentionally because he know it’s killing you. He knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt.
I’m not gonna lie to you, it will hurt. It will hurt a lot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his twitter/facebook/instagram profiles.
It’s all gonna hurt. Knowing you’re not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing you’re not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last person before he goes to sleep. Knowing you’re not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing that he has already deleted the album of pictures of you he once had on his phone. Knowing you won’t be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not gonna be anymore late night calls arguing about who loves who the most…
AND YOU KNOW WHAT??? Today, tomorrow, next week, months from now, your phone will go off with a text message, and you will instantly grab your phone, hoping it’s him, saying he wants to give your relationship another shot.
But trust me, he’s got too much pride. Even he wanted to be back, he wouldnt tell you.
But..you’re soon gonna realise he doesnt care about you anymore and then, suddenly, he won’t be the first person you call when you’re upset, anymore. He won’t be the one to put that smile on your face.
It’s hurting so much right now, i KNOW!!! But you know what you should do??? HOLD YOUR HEAD UP..SHOW HIM YOU ARE BETTER THAN HIM AND DON’T NEED HIM IN YOUR LIFE. PROVE TO HIM THAT HE MADE THE BIGGEST MISTAKE OF HIS LIFE LETTING TO GO AND THAT YOU NEVER REALLY NEEDED HIM ANYWAYS!!!!
“When the devil keeps on asking you to look at your past, there must be something good in the future that the devil doesn’t want you to see.”